I have been keeping my situation to myself but need prayers.

I was injured on a job 10 yrs ago. I suffer from alot of back pain and nerve problems along with migrains. My pain stems from herniated disc. Well I was treated with meds and steroids and it seemed to go back to normal for the most part. Well, with all the issues over the past yr and a half regarding the little boy we were trying to adopt from his abusive family, I have neglected myself and didnt recognize the symptoms of a real problem. Well, towards the end of may, I woke in the morning hurting more than usual in my neck and back. It got so bad as the early morning went on that I couldnt move or breath without severe pain. I ended up going to the ER once I got the kids ready and off to school. They did an exray and gave me several shots for pain and inflamation and a muscle relaxer. I was so sick the rest of the day. The ER dr told me my back didnt look good and I needed to see my dr for an MRI. I ended up back at the ER before I could see my dr for for the MRI. Well I had the MRI and the dr called me in to discuss it. I have a herniated disc in my lower back and 2 bulging disc in my upper back. Then he told me something that scared me. He said that over time our vertibrae will change shape from age and compression and such and sometimes will cause the bone to push outward. He told me that unfortunatley when one of mine changed part of the vertibrae is now poking into my spinal cord. He said it wasnt good and that I have way to much going on in my back and it was time to see a neurosurgen. I am waiting for the appt now, not sure when yet, I know he said I may have to travel to see one since he wants me in as soon as possible. He says he cant give treatment due to the severity but he will treat my pain. He just wanted me to be careful so I dont get addicted to it. I told him no worries there, all the meds make me sick and so I usually just take tylenol or ibuprophen unless its real bad. I hate the way the meds make me feel.
Anyway, I am not leaving my groups or forums, I am just trying to settle up on everything I have out. I am going to sell all my finished babies probably much less than I would like but I need to move what I have here. I ordered air dry paints so I can just sit and paint and not have to get up over and over for the oven....lol This doesnt really keep me from making the reborns or being online.
I just have been struggling with this myself since I have no one here at home really to connect with. It is something I have just been dealing with alone, except for my hubby of course but you know how men can be.

I am gonna send some babies to ebay but will offer them on forums first so maybe I can skip ebay and save on the fees!
Look for them in the for sale section....one will be my tessa baby in my sig pic, she has been to ebay but didnt meet reserve.

Anyway, I will be here everyday like normal but if i seem a bit more quiet or dont come on a day or something, no worries, just probably having a rough day. Just remember me in your prayers please, This is very painful and it does scare me.

Ohh sorry to hear that Sarah, you must be in so much pain. I hope they can give you treatment soon and that it will really help you to feel better and more like yourself. I'm glad that you don't have to give up making reborns as you have such a talent at it. I will be praying for you and your health

oh girl so sorry.. sending lots of prayers..
hugs,
Carmen in nj

Sarah, I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I will continue to pray for you. I hope that the specialist you will see will be giving you some hopeful information on your condition, so you don't need to worry about what might happen down the road. I am sure that handling the pain is more than enough to handle. Please take care of yourself, and let me know if you need anything.
Please keep us all posted on what is going on.

Thanks ladies! I try not to think about what is going on. I have been praying about it and i know it will all work out, just some days are harder than others. It is just a rough road to travel. I will keep ya'll updated. Tank you all again!

Sarah, please know that I will keep you in my prayers. I, too, have similar back issues. I have had 4 surgeries and am finally nearly pain free, but I have permanent damage from waiting too long to have things fused/repaired. Not by my choice but by my doctors decisions. As far as pain meds go, sometimes you have to realize that pain causes us to "splint" meaning that we tighten up around the areas that are painful. It is a survival mechanism our bodies have, but after awhile the splinting can cause huge damage especially on nerves. Pain relief is major to help prevent all the bad stuff, addiction is curable especially in this kind of case where it is a cross between a rock and a hard place. I have been through so much in the last 7 years that I feel like I am some kind of expert. But I am not....that's for sure. But, the effects of pain on the whole of your body is so devastating that it can cause a lot of problems too. Don't be too afraid of surgery...it really hurts like the pajiminy in the beginning, but after a few days the relief of freeing those trapped nerves and the out of line vertebrae far makes up for it.
Take care....if you need an ear from someone who KNOWS what you are going through then I am here for you. Anytime.
hugs
Joy

I'm so sorry your having so much pain hon I hope and pray that you will feel better very soon... sherrie

Sarah I am so sorry to hear of all the pain you are having please take care of yourself. You will be in my daily prayers hoping tht they can get you help as quick as possible.
Hugs and prayers
Linda
Second Childhood Nursery

Sara, I am really sorry to hear of your pain. I will be praying for you. Wish you get free of the pains soon.
Hugs
Lucia