If you could ...

keep me in your thoughts and prayers ... this week may be a tough one for me. Tomorrow I am headed to our local "Mental Hospital" if you will ... for some therapy and possibly some med changes ... the past 6-8 months or so I have felt myself going down down down and just haven't really been telling anyone about it ... finally at my appt Thursday I decided I am tired of pretending when I know I need some help and finally told my Dr things he needed to know ... I see him every 3 months ... he sent me straight to the Hospital that evening and I talked intake out of keeping me because of Easter today and the fact that my in-laws were here ... I know I need some help and am not apposed to getting help, I just wanted to wait till tomorrow ... they may choose to just keep me in the outpatient program, but my Dr really wants me inpatient so he can adjust things and keep a watch on me while they change some meds ... it's the safest place to be in case something doesn't work for me ... I won't know till tomorrow morning when I go ... so if I am MIA for the week, it's because I will be "taking care of business" ... there is no phone, no visitors, no resting, so even though my husband will be able to come to counceling with me, no one else will be able to get in touch with me ... Just know I will be thinking of you all and MISSING you all too ...
Please say a little prayer that I can be fixed and be able to actually "live" again ... and not just "exist" ... it's a very tough thing to admit, but it's the truth and I figure if my "friends" can't know, who will be praying for me? So I have opened up to you all and hope you don't think worse of me because of my depression, anxiety ...
If they don't keep me, I will be back in the evenings and I will get on and keep you all informed how things are going ...
THANK YOU ALL!! Just Thank You ...

Oh sweetie...of course I'll remember you in my prayers....God can help you through this....just look to Him for
strength and peace.

Psalm 9:9-10

The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble.

And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for thou, LORD, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.

Linda, do what has to be done. If you do not take care of yourself, who else will? I am glad you are accepting the help as many refuse to admit they have a problem. You have taken the hardest step. Will be thinking of you.

I am glad you decided to share this. I hope you come back ready to grab life with both hands. You have a great family who loves you and I am one friend who loves you. That grand daughter is beautiful and loves you and you have a grand son who will love you the same.

Hope you get the help you need Linda. Will be praying for you

I underwent counselling years ago after being stalked and harrassed by a neighbour, as well as being in an abusive marriage at the same time. The counsellor said to me she would not know the new Lyn that came out of the sessions we had but for me to know that she would be a better Lyn., and she was right, I am better for all I went through and the counselling I received. I have been to other counselling sessions that were nowhere near as helpful as this counsellor was, so finding the right counseller is as important as receiving the counselling we need.
I have not needed counselling since then as I now have a different outlook on life to what I had back then (plus I gained the strength to leave my abusive marriage).

COURAGE AND LOVE AND UNDERSTANING are what I thinking of for you! you go girl! Can't wait to have you back and working on all four cylidars andhaving the world reach out to hug you ans you hug it!

love
joy

Take care of yourself, and the people who love you will be a real solice to you......and sometimes someone outside that circle can give you the most help.........can't wait to hear all is going well.......

Oh Linda, I am so proud of you for letting us know so we can pray. it is never easy to admit we need help. You are strong and can get better with God and the help of those God has given knowledge too. I believe with everything in me, He is the source by which healing comes and most of the time it is through doctors and medicine which He has given the ability to treat us. I'll be praying for you as well as those that will be helping you. You'll be back with us in no time at all. Keep us informed!

I am glad you told us Linda so we can all support and pray for you - will be thinking of you

You will be in my thoughts and prayers Linda.. I unerstand completely what you are going through as I have dealt with some of the same issues my self in the past. Do what you need to do to make you better and we will all be here behind you.

Linda, I am so sorry for the way you are feeling. I know that feelling. I have struggled for the last few years with depression. Its only gotten worse this last year. When my nephew died unexpectedly, my neice is still dangerosly ill, and my son in tennessee and grandbaby we don't get to see, these things just caved in on me and didn't give me a chance to get my footing back.
Many times I have removed the Lexapro box that my doctor gave me(a month's supply) only to stare at it and put it back in the closet.
My family has a history of diabetes, high blood pressure, depression, dependency on alcohol, pills for depression, the list goes on. I am so afraid to go down that path because of my family's history.
Best of luck to you.We are all here for you and are praying for you.
Linda

Will be praying for you too!!!

Sorry I didn't post sooner Linda...I just got out of the hospital myself...luckily no surgery this time...just gotta wear a full back brace 24/7 now to protect against any further injury.

I am so proud of you for speaking out and asking for help...if only my late husband would have done that same thing. I watched daily what depression and anxiety can do to a person's body and spirit. It eventually wore his heart down and he lost his battle back in 2008. I almost went into a severe depression myself after that...raising 3 kids alone now...the youngest one his, who adored him...but I had a wonderful best friend there to help me out...my hubby now...and he reminded me everyone needs some help once in a while and there was no shame in speaking out and asking for it. I talked to a counselor and it made all the difference in the world. I don't think I could have moved on and ended up with such a wonderful life and marriage now if I had not went to counseling.

Stay strong and you will pull through wonderfully. You have many friends who love you and many people who admire you for speaking out. If only more people would speak out, maybe others would not be so afraid to ask for help. Anyways, good luck in your journey, and if you ever need a shoulder or an ear...I'm just a PM or an email away...or you have my address from the round robin and the kit you sent me.

Congrats on your new grandbaby that's on the way...I can't wait to be a grandma someday. The DIL says she is thinking about kids now, so maybe when my son gets to come home they will make some definite plans. Got my fingers crossed...